Let's pretend we are sitting face to face and I am telling you something of importance. We are long time friends and can share anything. So I am going to tell you that
I have resigned as a Close To My Heart Consultant.
Whew. That was really hard to get out.
Can I explain my decision process to you, my dear friend?
For over two years, I was torn on whether or not I should continue. It took me two years before I came to the end of my rope and just begged God to take the decision from my hands. My first love has always been photography and people were starting to approach me with requests for portraits and even weddings. Knowing I couldn't handle TWO jobs, one had to go. Then one day, SEVEN different and new people asked to hire me for their special events/family photo sessions. SEVEN. My thick head still couldn't grasp that maybe God was trying to show me something. Heck...he was SLAPPING me in the face with it.
I couldn't sleep. I prayed and prayed and literally held my hands out to Him asking him to take this conflict and help me make the decision. For the first time since before my pregnancy with my 7 month old son, I slept through the night...solid. Didn't move, didn't wake up...just drooled and slept....like a log. 0630 came around and I woke up, on my own (not normal) refreshed and completely at peace with the fact that I knew I needed to resign.
Do you know how free I feel? It is unexplainable...it's that free. While I love CTMH, I felt stressed that I had to use ONLY CTMH product when creating or else I was not doing my biz justice. While CTMH has AMAZING products, I love so many other companies as well and can't keep my hands off all the fun goodies out there. I will continue to buy and use CTMH products and I will never NEVER stop scrappin or creating. But the freedom I feel. God is just SO good.
Yes, I did decide to take photography jobs but it is SO much different. I spend two hours at a shoot and only book myself four a month. I spend two hours editing, organizing and ordering the shots. I have much more time for my first priority, my family. And since I have my camera with me at all times, I am able to practice my photography with my three willing (not always) subjects. Can you imagine me "Practicing Scrappin" with a 4 year old, 2 year old and 7 month old sitting in front of me.
SO...to prove to you that I am not done creating, please keep checking in on this little blog. I actually submitted my resignation letter to CTMH over two weeks ago and they just confirmed it with me today. And, if you noticed, I was still creating and bloggin lots...just not CTMH only and not as often. This is a passionate hobby of mine and probably always will be. It's just that now, I can't try and justify it to my husband as "business needs". ;)
I really LOVE these 4x6 photo sheets and wanted to make a page with them but not have it be too boring. I am happy with how it turned out and can't wait to make more like this. To give the page some color, I slide stripes of paper cut to just under 1/4" in the openings on the page. I also added matching paper to the photo itself, giving me space to journal a bit. I can also imagine doing some hybrid with these sheets!

Added some depth by sticking on a star with 3d foam squares. Wanted to use my cord twilight CTMH brad but couldn't find it. Told you I was hockin stuff! ;)

Button on the side added just the right pop for the left side of the layout. I used all the same color buttons as the colors in the pattern paper.
This...this was not my idea but I can't remember where I saw it. I used a hole punch to create an opening for the ribbon, slide a piece through and then tied the buttons on around the ribbon with bakers string. I have seen the whole button-tie-round-ribbon thing before but not on a page. I like this because then, in the album, it sticks out and almost decorate the album as well.
Products Used:
- Page Protector from CTMH
- Color Me Happy Pattern Paper from Basic Grey
- Star Stamp from Papertrey Ink
- Breeze Ribbon from Stampin Up
- Buttons from My Big ol Button Jar
- Bakers Twine from Impress Rubber Stamp
In case you missed the previous post and want to see a sneak at my photography adventures...check out www.amyballard.typepad.com to see what I see. Thanks for following this silly little blog and I hope to see many of you still checking in for inspiration or mockery or whatever reason you may stop by. ;)
Amy R Ballard